"Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him: but the just shall live by his faith" "
"Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation."
Habakkuk 2:7, 3:17-18
In chapter 1, Habakkuk cries out to God and says god why are you not punishing us (Lebanon), there's so much sin here, aren't you going to do something?? Then God says hey, look arond you I'm working here. You know the Chaldeans, big scary army? The ones that laugh at rulers and spit on tents? Well I'm gonna send them to wipe you guys out.. and then Habakkuk goes "..wait a minute..the Chaldeans?? God come on now. Have some compassion! Your not going to let your people die off are you?" (Man! Habakkuk has some nerve doesn't he?). But then God says don't worry, I will take care of my people "The just shall live by faith." Then Habakkuk is finally satisfied and says alright God, no matter what happens I will have faith in you and praise your name.
Wow. How often do I do this with God?! I think I know everything. Always trying to tell him what to do. And when he answers, I'm shocked and I challenge him. "God what are you doing??" I'm doing this now. I'm asking God what he wants me to do for my recovery and he's saying inpatient treatment and I'm saying, no God I don't think so. I need to learn to just give it up to him and let him do what he's got to to do. And when he does it and I don't like it I need to be joyful and praise his name!
God, I'm powerless over my eating disorder, I know that you have the power to restore me to stanity. I want to trust you completely to guide my life. I want to live my life by having full faith in you. Keep me humble and I pray that your will be done. Amen.
